People are real phonies. Honestly. You never know whose your friend anymore. Everyone always talking behind your back, everyone running around with half a brain. I hate people sometimes. You go out with someone you think is really really neat and he/she turns out to be a phony. This girl I was friends with . BOY! Was she queen. A reaaaaallll Queen. She "never" did drugs yet last saturday there she was snorting coke. HONESTLY! I think people do hard drugs because their life sucks. They can't drink and be happy. They have to do hard drugs because its their only way to make life better. They feel better, I mean. JEEZ . It makes you so depressed. I watch people on T.V. shooting up roxys and oxys and heroin and all and it makes you so damn depressed. Jeez. If my life sucked so bad that the only way I could get high was off a dumb pill I'd probably kill myself. I guess its the only way they feel good but It makes you depressed as hell thinking about it. They way they talk about how good it feels. You want to push them off a building or something so they can at least get a real thrill before they die.....



People like that. Just killllll me. I guess they all deserve eachother in a way. They need to go on a desert isle filled with a pile of needles and heroin so they can all overdose together. Get high and feel better so the rest of us can stop feeling so damn depressed and can get high off the real things in life. Like love and jumping off bridges and going to the beach and drinking and sleeping next to someone.


They should all just go to this island and feel good on their drugs so I can enjoy life.


Really. Honest to god you look in the newspaper and it depresses hell out of you.  The wrong people always die and the rest of us are stuck with the phonies, needles in their arms and all, coming through the damn windows.


Drugs breed lies. i've seen it a MILLION times.

and the people. they wouldnt mind living on this island. they are already living this phony sense of what its like to feel good. they wouldnt mind living with the other phonies and having a phony time.


if you think about it.

thats what all my exes are. i am going to ignore them from now on. pieces of shit. actually not even that. i really hope they die.

work. than over to hang out with this really cute guy, andrew.

amazingly enough i had an awesome time these last couple days.

i met some rad dudes


partying last night with my buddies proved to be a lot of fun. no pants-party bitches. they are definitely where its at! i put the pictures on my myspace but someone had reported one of the pictures :( not sure which one since there is no nudity in any of them...but i have a feeling it is one of the few guys whom ive recently upset or girls..lol.. i wished i could have hung out with more men , but what can you do...

i am wondering what to wear tonight. tho i really shouldnt care.. 1 because i shouldnt 2. because im hoping he wont wear anything.

tho i doubt the latter because he seems kind of a prude.

i am totally gaining points on this game garrett and i are playing. tho garrett says if i hook up with any of these guys, farm animals might as well count...

i dont think so..  some of them have great potential. including this one.... which i stake at a good 10 points. i even bet on it.


playing games with men....


everything life should be.

pure and simple.

we do it better. thats for damned sure.



amazing night. honestly. i really couldnt describe . not to you. you wouldnt understand. youd have to have been there. and you werent.



and?


well....that just means you fucking suck

I am happy to be done with exams, although I am exhausted from the emotional and physical strain. I'm hoping to take a trip to ft. lauderdale soon with some friends of mine. the beach would be a perfect cure for stress!

other than that i am completely stoked for the spring break parties that are appearing in their multitudes this week.

school has been put temporarily on hold, life couldn't get as good as it is now, and im definitely ready to fuckin' rage!